Not today!

No more swealtering blankets of sorrow and pitiful outcries of woe is me.

Today is a beautiful day. It was 70 degrees earlier, so I know it's warmer now. The kids were playing outside in their swimsuits as they were "hiking" and "bear hunting" with Isaac's tent. Only from a child's mind.

We went to the store after lunch and they got to pick out ice cream. Their choice. Dora popsicles. We all had two outside while they played in the driveway and sidewalk.

I don't feel great, but I don't feel wretched either. I say it's a wash. I am now 12 weeks and have made it through one-third of this breeding. One of the emails I receive that tells me how far along I am (the only way I know) had pictures of t-shirts on them. This one was my fave. It say's "I grow people. What's your superpower?"

I'm blessed to carry this child. There is a little person inside of me that when the doc put the ultrasound thingy up to him/her, little Baby C actually surprised the doc by waving and wiggling so much. Only 28 weeks to go.

Speaking of Vicks

www.snopes.com has this as undetermined here. But it might be worth a shot in the future.

Take everything with a grain of salt...


VICK's Vapor Rub During a lecture on Essential Oils, they told us how the foot soles can absorb oils. Their example: Put garlic on your feet and within 20 minutes you can 'taste' it. Some of us have used Vicks Vaporub for years for everything from chapped lips to sore toes and many body parts in between. But I've never heard of this. And don't laugh, it works 100% of the time, although the scientists who discovered it aren't sure why. To stop night time coughing in a child (or adult as we found out personally) put Vicks Vaporub generously on the bottom of the feet at bedtime, then cover with socks. Even persistent, heavy, deep coughing will stop in about 5 minutes and stay stopped for many, many hours of relief. Works 100% of the time and is more effective in children than even very strong prescription cough medicines. In addition it is extremely soothing and comforting and they will sleep soundly. Just happened to tune in A.M. Radio and picked up this guy talking about why cough medicines in kids often do more harm than good, due to the chemical makeup of these strong drugs so, I listened. It was a surprise finding and found to be more effective than prescribed medicines for children at bedtime in addition to have a soothing and calming effect on sick children who then went on to sleep soundly. My wife tried it on herself when she had a very deep constant and persistent cough a few weeks ago and it worked 100%! She said that it felt like a warm blanket had enveloped her, coughing stopped in a few minutes and believe me, this was a deep, (incredibly annoying!) every few seconds uncontrollable cough, and she slept cough-free for hours every night that she used it.

I miss the joy of eating.

You know, some women may wish they didn't have the joy of eating simply because it would mean their waistline might be narrower, but you know what...it sucks to not have ANY joy in eating. With a pregnant me, there is no pleasure. There is no anticipation. There is no waiting for that first bite and melting into the gracious solitude and personal bliss that encompasses your body when the tasty morsels melt in your mouth and the savory or sweet juices caress your tongue. Then you breathe in deep and sigh with resignation to your fork and your peaceful next bite. Only to continue until your stomach is bursting and your mind begs for more.

Hooray for you. You suck.

Don't take it personally.

I remember after my delivery of Camille and Isaac how pleasurable the hospital food was. HOSPITAL FOOD!

I'm also so congested right now, I can't even smell Vicks menthol rub that I beg provides relief for my devastating snot passages. My tongue has soars on it from breathing through my mouth at night. That's with a humidifier soaking my bed beside me.

So, congestion that won't let me taste food in the first place and an abhorrence of food, which by the way is the only thing that makes me feel a bit better. Someone has a sense of humor!

But, I guess I should consider myself lucky that I can't smell the toots given off by our somewhat loopy dog, Cooper. He just ripped one.

Underwear

Wednesday morning Isaac woke up (early), we sent him back to bed. When Jason went in there to see what all the noise was about, he saw our little man sitting in his bed with his closet light on. He was putting his superman pajama (thank you, Keri) bottoms back on over the underwear he had put on. He had pulled his pull-up off and put on underwear and hasn't worn the pull-ups since then.

I think God knew I needed this.

Hip Hip Hooray!

Maybe?!

Maybe there is an end in sight?! This morning I did not throw up. Can you hear the angels singing? I have felt reasonably human all day today. I have only felt predictably nauseated, but not to the point where I actually felt like dying i.e. the last 35 days no wait the last 840 hours or even the last 50, 400 minutes. Don't check my math, I'm still not feeling my best...

However, I was able to do the dishes today and cook the kids some dinner. It is an amazing accomplishment. If you have been praying, please continue. I am in desperate need for a major lift-up to the Big Guy. I have been really down lately thinking that this pregnancy will be another test of misery on my body, my kids and my marriage. I have the most supportive husband, but even he gets tired of hearing how wrecked I feel. I'm having a hard time finding joy right now and I know I need to be the one to choose to find it and pull myself up and out of this, but I'm really struggling trying to understand God's path with this whole thing.

Just being honest.